ya for some reason i have decided to come back. if u realised, well then, word of advice.
if you cannot stand my blogging style, don't read anymore. i blog for a handful of readers. people who can understand what i'm thinking at that point of time. and people who allow me to move on after every angry entry.
kk... updates.
this was supposedly yesterday's entry.
babies...
to my number 1 baby: sorry dear. been feeling shitty lately. in e end let it out on you. must practise the "noble silence" more. =p thanks for all your support, and time, and everything else you did that i will not mention here. haha.
k lah. actually the babies were meant for the 5 baby kittens that were born 2 nights ago at the cattery. me went back to the cattery to help out yesterday(sunday) and there were 5 kittens that were just half the size of my palm loh! i dun believe i ever saw kittens that small in my life!spent 2 hours at the sink washing dish after dish after dish. it was never ending lah. but after that was quite relaxed oredi. only helped put some newspapers in the cats' baskets. and fill their food bowls. and blablabla. then sit ard talk to the volunteers and play with the cats while waiting for ms lee to come. and she remembers my name!!! so happy lah. den got some silly frog swimming in the dog's water bowl. bleh. the dogs there were quiet today. didn't bark when i entered. they recognise my smell oredi? or was it coz a dog died some days back...?
either way, it was a good few hours without thinking abt school, abt people... and i was doing something i like, with people who have great attitude and sincerity. and helping cats that do not complain. instead they love you so much. i think.i can only love animals. but people are animals, aren't they? yet why do i hate people?
truth is, people are not just animals.
they're worse than animals.
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k dat was the end of the entry. now newer updates.
officially spent my 1st night in hall. quite alrite. loving my tv.
officially started training again. gonna heck my ankle though it seems like though it did hurt alot during training, it doesn't feel as dead as before... or as useless as i though it would be.
i tried my 1st tutorial before lesson. got 1/2 out of 3 questions correct. but i quite happy liao.
i think i'm going to be stuck with a shitty elective this sem. but i heck liao la.
my mother called me when i was in hall, to ask me how i am. we talked alot of bull. hahaa. i love her.
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please dudes n dudettes,
next time i shoot myself on this blog, then let me. it's my blog. and it's not meant to affect you. just read it with buckets of salt, like my sis n sm does.
i won't wallow in self pity forever. i know i'm undeserving. =P
kEsHia 