being an individual, i'm happy. today's workshop wasn't too bad. though i was on my own most of the time. it was a good workshop lah. really. except for the maths part. well... for a weak tutor like me, the workshop proved helpful.

last night for a good rest. training starting soon. meetings and deadlines to meet. moving back to hall. working too. take care everyone~ enjoy e hols.

funny how things have changed...

1stly, sad to announce that... my biceps are GONE. my triceps are GONE. G-O-N-E. Gone. No matter how I flex, they're gone. Worse still... my waist has gotten wider. layers and layers of fat hang so loosely... around my waist and at my upper arm. my upper arm... haai... my mum and my sis used to admire me coz i didn't have those loose flabs that dangle under the arm.. but now I do... man... wat a blow sia... so depressed...

such a depressing day today. and i predict a worse day 2mr. man... can't wait till it's all over and I can dun see wsc ppl so often. miss e odac peeps sia. a whole lot. even though i not close to them. there's only 1 person in wsc who makes me feel comfortable. and she can't always be there for me. haai.

like i said, funny how things changed.
a few months back, i was thinking of putting in my all for wsc. i was even thinking of not joining odac. but now... wsc is where i'm faced with my dislikes and things i've been running away from. and also wsc is where i'm the person i wasn't happy with. where i'm the person everyone dun like. And now, although in odac i dun really know alot of ppl and vice versa, i'm happy with my small circle of friends. i'm contented knowing them. i can not want anything else in the world and still be happy when i'm alone. so long as i just had their company.

i miss odac...

i went swimming today! with my dad. had e whole pool to myself! until my dad came along. den went ding tai feng buy timsum. not vewy nice arh. and he bought alot. hmm... watever. i'll b back in hall 2nite so doesn't really concern me. =P

kinda miss talking to L. zy is getting on my nerves. which reminds me. my hp really sux. dropped it yesterday. so last nite when i turned on my fone b4 sleeping the time showed 0015. nice time for disturbing some ppl who might be trying to sleep. so i fwded L this disturb him msg and he msged back thanking me for waking him up. then i realised that it was actually already 2am in the morning! shit sia super guilty arh...

these days really hooked on the LOTR book. hey the book is a really good read k. the movie showed only so little of what is in the book. and alot of what they show in the movies are rewritten to increase the romance scenes.

finally...
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Awwwww... isn't he so super duper adorable......!!!!! was at seiyu some days ago and saw the jabbering jack-jack toy and the sound dat it made was so cute loh. but i dun like dolls lah so i'll just satisfy myself with this pic of his. hehe...

sianz workshop 2mr. wsc is kinda getting on my nerves. wonder where i found the passion from sia. bleahz. stupid wsc. ruin my passion. =P

I was the outcast today, and guess I always will be. So long as the activities concern wsc, i'll be the outcast. think next year i dun wanna be so devoted to wsc anymore. miss odac days whenever i'm with wsc. sianz... outcast outcast outcast...

but today very cute larh.. the graduated senior attached saw my signing den he corrected me... which is good larh... tot I could sucessfully hide my sign language level from everyone but still kena chuan1 bang1. oh well... after song signing is done i can finally feel the interest in song signing dying out.

wish my hair were shorter... butch like or something...

my roomie's birthday is in 4 days!!! shit man i dunno wat to get her...

House of Flying Chestnuts is superb man! U all shld go watch! But if u all watched it last year already, two words. Bo Jio!!! =P
Sorry Jonathan Lim for devoting my eyes and ears to Hossan Leong most of the time. He is my number one idol can't be helped. Both of u did excellent. Laugh till I tired can..
Even the Ju-on boiboi didn't seem that scary that much.
Thank you all, to Jonathan Lim, to Hossan Leong, and to the backstage frontstage behind the scenes and the busy people bringing out the props, not forgetting Vernetta Lopez. Thanks for the wonderful evening.

Thanks, for making my sister happy. =)

2mr go back hostel hope my camera is there. fuckit. i'm so forgetful can. if it's lost i'm so dead.

oh yah... think the ophir peepz dun remember or dun come here so i stopped the tribute entries le. dun need to say out. tribute from the bottom of me tiny heart. exams r over. for everyone. wohoh~ partay time~

today's song signing pract quite a disappointment arh. not that they didn't do anything. but I was pretty disappointed in myself coz I'm supposed to be good at signing but still I'm finding it hard to catch up... man i need more practice... not just in song signing but everything...

okie... nap time.

today... nono... yesterday... felt blessed again. (",)

i like going out wif my ntu odac frens... not juz any ntu odac frens. Ophir rulz. Today only 5 ppl turned up. shifu said i vewi quiet 2day. maybe coz L not ard bah. no one for me to fight wif. but still vewi happy. they tok alot. 2day everyone who went make me feel vewi comfortable one. 5 ppl. But still very blessed... to still haf them ard...

go read a book...

After the exams...

I'm still sick.
I've not returned to hall.
Spent every single day in front of my laptop.
Spent the entire day in a room of acrylic dust making my friend's present.
Finished watching Gundam Seed (woah nice...)
Stopped training (sick mah)
Dyed my hair (the wrong colour)
Spent a lot of money

I must...
Start training (jogging...for Nuang)
Get my laptop fixed
Finish more presents
Find a job

I have to...
Sort my notes for da baos nxt sem
Attend song signing practice
Finish up wsc n hall proposals

yup... for now.

today... could have spent it at training. but din go for training. in fact, i won't be training this month. coz my saturdays will be occupied from next week onwards, so for this month i'll be paying the entire fee for only 2 days. decided i'll not go.

so today... went swimming with my dad. felt great to be in the water again. after so long. 6 months. maybe even more. den went akashi for lunch. shopped in orchard. went for beer. talked alot. i dread it every time he brings me there for beer. coz he'll talk a lot. abt his work, abt my sch, abt everything our family experiences and more. but always end up knowing each other better. so i always leave the place happy though. =)

shopped alot wif dad. he almost bought me the jack-jack cushion. hehe. but i contented with my jack-jack toy from the cereal box. lalaa...

good day.

today, no, yesterday, was a good day. even though i didn't manage to donate blood with von coz i was still sick. it was a good day. coz was out wif von n joyce. went to the chinatown heritage museum. really nice. had a great time. the exhibits were excellently done, effects n all. u all shld go check it out some time. but if u're a scaredy cat like me, dun go alone. the effects could shock u. i was wif them and i myself still had quite a fright at times. hehe.
den we went army market. i bought a field chair for my nuang trip! dey didn't haf green (so sad!!!). but i bought it anyway. it was just too tempting... =P and i got powder too..~ yeah super light brand..lalaa...
den went bras bersah. bought stuff. den we went bugis. watched The Incredibles! hehe.. though i watched it knowing what would happen nxt coz i saw the movie on vcd oredi, it was nice. had a great time laughing and realising parts of the show i missed the 1st time i watched it. jack-jack is soooooooooooo cuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuttttttttttteeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!! man i wanted to buy the jack-jack cushion for my room so super badly sia... hehe... oh von can do such a good impersonation of jack-jack can. so cute lorh!!! after the movie we went walkwalk...
den went orchard..see the food fest... den went to eat lok-lok. super ex but super filling larh. nice chicken too... den went PS... walkwalk again... den go home le..

viv called. invited me for cell. hmm... told my mother i going but din tell her they were ppl i got to know at church... can't stand it larh.. dunno y my mother so against me hanging out wif my frens at church.. x-tians jiu4 bu2 shi4 ren2 ma? shit logic larh. dun let me go out wif them. i convert den u noe ah! *bleahx*

so much for a good day. job hunting starts 2mr. lalalaa...

i am pissed off man.

people who know me will know I'm a supporter of piracy. (yeah come arrest me u sons-of-bitches) so I can't stand it when i buy something that's supposed to be original and go home only to realise I can't use it. especially when it's a pc game.

today, it happened. i had to buy a game, exceed my spending budget becoz i wanted the game, only to realise i can't load it into my sis' comp, can't load it into my laptop, successfully load it into my computer only to realise i can't start the game coz some programme keeps creating an error! blah. on top of that, now my computer is infected with some trojan horse shit again! again!! wth...

but that aside, i had a great time shopping wif my sis. bought a heck load of cds to start my "support piracy" campaign. had a foot long of cold cut trio from subway. yumyum. and i bought a new water bottle (green too!) coz i left my ntu water bottle in e exam hall. *kns* guess free stuff aren't meant to be mine... geezzz...

cheap stuff ain't meant to be mine too...(darn computer game... was really looking forward to playing it... miss trains man..)

lots to do 2nite.. 2mr going out...

i'm not coughing that much anymore~~ lalalaa...

oh yah... i'm not training at nus this month..

yesterday was... i dunno... good? bad? both? i guess so.

still... not a day to be remembered. dun like it when my circle of friends get bigger.

dun like it when God comes into the issue.

I'd like to believe that things I do succeed because I believe in myself, not because I believe in God. Church is scary.

But I too believe in retribution. Isn't that believing that God will punish those who go against him?

Alot on my mind last night. Words were screaming in my head.

My godmother told me alot of stories last night. There was alot of hatred in the family. Her family. My dad's family. I'm so glad I dun hafta go through that.

Had a really weird dream.

doesn't matter. I'm home. Good to be home. =)

Selamat Hari Raya all my Malay friends out there. Lalalaaa...

P.S. there wasn't any training yesterday. geez y wasn't i told? hehee another slack day...

exams are over! chocolate buffet is over! both are failures! arrrrrrrrrrrrrrggggggggggghhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

fuck. yesterday was a bad day. bad paper. bad afternoon. left so many things in school. had to carry so many things home. chocobuffet n my card got maxed out. fucccccccccccccccccccccccccck.

well... talked to him. he called. den i called. and we talked. and... training later! but got church too... haai... pls dun let me have another bad day...

very tired le...

2day is a bad day. worst day of my life. 2day is a bad day. worst day of my life. 2day is a bad day. worst day of my life. 2day is a bad day. worst day of my life. 2day is a bad day. worst day of my life. 2day is a bad day. worst day of my life. 2day is a bad day. worst day of my life. 2day is a bad day. worst day of my life.

just in case u were wondering why i repeated it so many times, i was trying to type the 2 sentences without making any mistakes. all the way i made mistakes until the last 2. yes today is a bad day. worst day of my life.

can't wait for exams to be over. for next sem to start. for my second chance at physics, and hopefully econs n life science too..

now... just can't wait for me to fully recover.

cough is back. rain is here. econs is OVER!!! physics and material science left. in fact, physics is just 2mr and i've yet to seriously start studying!!! wat's wrong wif me sia... *yoyoyoyo... cyndi... bleahx*

been sleeping on the floor these 2 days. in von n noelle s' room. tot i recover le but still sad. 2dae, no yesterday, cough came back! fuck it. been popping lozenges like candy. gonna finish them soon...

things to do after exams:
training
chocolate buffet
CH event
training
dinner cruise wif sis
rollerblading
nite cycling
R's present
M's present
T's present
Roomie's present
training
training
running
jogging
training
kayaking poster
kallang event poster
House of Flying Chestnuts!
macritchie exploration
walk to the zoo
ntu drainage route
revamp hall room
work
work
work
army market shopping
nuang trip
...
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...

for now. the final leap. get well soon girl. jia you!

and everyone else too.

so many things on my mind now, dunno where to start...

happy things 1st. i just got paid. $60 for 3 weeks of work. very little lah. but at least got some cash in my wallet. abit happy larh.

den...haaiz. exams haf been shit. studying for it is worse. after maths on wednesday i totally lost e momentum to study. life sci is all mcq loh. wat the shit. can't seem to remember the facts.

sign lang exam is 2mr. or later. and i'm so unprepared.

10x M for e luck. nice getting luck from someone u respect. =)

wed went to see doctor after maths exam. friggin scary day. nearly got knocked down by a bicycle. den at night was trying to get the friggin gas into the stove but it wouldn't fit so lotsa gas escaped den tot i got it but when it was cooking halfway the gas cylinder part caught fire. i was so darn freaked out can...

k lah. back to studies. jia you everyone.

been coughing in my sleep quite a bit. i must get well soon sia... so tired can...