it's a freaking bad day sia... i tink i haf e ability to predict when something bad will happen.

my laptop crashed last nite. i slept b4 1am. woke up at 9am. tmd freaking slept a whole 8 hours n more loh. *points middle finger* (in case u're wondering, i'm typing this in my hall's computer room. quite good lah peace n quiet + air con.)

den i didnt study for maths quiz.......... have u ever handed up a blank paper? shit man i did it too many times in my life le lah... tink i really too over confident wif my maths.. to think every single qns was a replica of the tutorial qns that i did before! grr...

and i tot yesterday was a good day. presentation finally over. my grp quite fun arh. they treated me to lunch after e presentation. one even drew on my hand, say i damn funny. hey few ppl say i funny k. den i left sch to meet sh...

...saw the malay HI from xcalibur in my grp dat time. he sat opposite me in e train. but he was sleeping... den i fell asleep too...

den met sh. wish i could join her in her work but cant lah...

hmm... after dat went back hall.. realised my laptop crashed... den my roomie so nice help me ask jq come n fix. but i was quite pissed off then lah, kept yelling at my mother. SORRY MA! den she still so worried kept thinking of solutions wif her little brain of limited substance. love u ma u so sweet... in e end i still didnt manage to wake up n go home so my laptop still spoilt.

den jq came. den he see my comp den tell me wat to do den still smile smile try to be helpful. i mean... he really very nice loh i oso not say very close to him or what den my roomie just tell him only he majiam fly down to my room to help me check it out. somemore is my laptop spoil leh should be i bring up to his room let him see rite? haai so paiseh somemore i dat time like treat him very bad coz i in bad mood but trying to hide it.

den he juz msged me to ask me if my laptop fixed le. say if anything can ask him hope he can help.

u noe.. sometimes it's good to have ppl ard you willing to help. i shld learn to accept help from others...

oh i realised dat my idol left a comment!!! thanx mic!!! *muackz* muahahaa... u're so cool sia...
know what i like abt her? her perception of things. everytime i complain dat i'm fat, ppl will say "u're not fat lah, u're heavy coz of ur heavy bones n muscles." yah rite if it were so will i still lose much of my weight shld i amputate both my arms coz dat's e only area i think have muscles dat heavy. Mic is different. she says "I'm as fat as u r!" hehe. she is soooooo cooooooooooool. i idolize her so much! haha. sis can kao4 bian1 zhan4. ;P

my daddy buanged other ppl's car today. coz we went to sao3 mu4 den he buanged the car into pillar. my daddy getting old le, cannot drive like he used too.

either that or work really stressing him out.

driving really very difficult. sorry ah L i owaes laff at u. :p

den daddy n sis send me back to hall. so now here i am. need to go back to finishing presentation otherwise 2nite no need sleep le.

i nearly freaked. haha.

my dad taught me to use my electric saw today. yup the electric saw that my aunt got me for christmas last year. i dared not use it coz it looked so scary.. not like the drill... coz the drill black & decker de, got recognised brand de, look more hardy. this electric saw my mother buy from market one dunno wat brand one i so scared i turn on the saw the blade would just fly into my eyes or something. then i tried. i couldn't hold it properly. den my dad said i had to put the saw down on the wood, not holding it the way i do with the drill. haha. silly me. i sawed off the 1st piece of wood.

after that, there was no stopping me. haha. wohoh!!!

my electric saw opened ceremony today. now i'm off to make bigger nicer stuff, faster too! yeah!

no more tuition until after exams! double yeah! my kid was stressing me out wif his movie knowledge. simply couldnt convince him to do anything else. haha. wat a failure.

i cant wait to get my hands on POT n HNG.

last nite was a memorable nite. even though i made /u/ cry. twice. hope u cheer up.

to everyone else out there, dont, and i repeat, DON'T, kpo. especially u, sis. i will angry one. control ur curiosity for once, please.

take care loh.

i feel so retarded sia...

this feels good... music in my ears... loud music... i cant even hear my roomie yelling nxt to me...
dunno whether she knows this, i'm blasting the music through my earphones so that i cant hear her n her friends talk/gossip their whatever secrets.

maybe the music will wake me up or something...

i cried. again. this time in front of successful ppl. in front of businessmen. maybe even ppl younger than me. cried, tears of immense anger.

i'm not going back. i'm glad my sis didnt go. sorry J, yesterday i was all set to change my life. today, i decided not to go for the course. i will not print the details, coz it's undeniable, that the company is great. great, but everything that they practise goes against my innermost desires.

Money, Freedom, Time, Success, Happiness.

lemme tell u, i'll be happier knowing the $1.6k is still safely inside my dad's wallet.

i dun desire a life wif lots of money. i dun desire alot of freedom. i dun want a long life. time to do the things i want is a luxury to me. So is success with a highly recognized status. and i dun hope for happiness.

sure i want self-confidence. i want it so much, want it so dearly. self-confidence comes from believing in myself. i'll find u someday...

i learnt alot from today. but i'm so pissed off by what i saw n failed to see today, i cant be bothered to type them out. and i know i will not in future. so that's it.

the me who stayed up till 6am last night is passe. i no longer worry abt whether to attend the course, whether to commit, whether to give up that one day of cor, where to get the money, the obligation to the ppl there. my mind's focussed now. studies. den see what goes at 2mr's mass sign meeting. if i'm in, i'm in. if i'm out, den i'll help outside the comm. den training, for myself, capoeira, complete the final stretch for sign language, train for atc, train for cor...and continue training into the next semester.

sorry to all at wherever dat place is. the dates for cor is 12-17july. i've been giving u all the wrong dates. not that it would matter to u all. coz none of u could see how impt this is to me.

grah... so tired. gonna burn some pages of whatever i wrote there soon... juz like how they burnt my bum.

ego at ground zero now. but the will to fight back is at 101%. i learnt something new and valuable, something that mr lim didnt mention. (the rest i heard from him b4.)

"most ppl are able to climb back up after they fall, but few continue walking after climbing up."

i need a good long jog. and a nice long sleep.

what an amazing day... my heart's still beating really hard... my hands and feet still shivering a bit...

i tot it would be a bad day. i skipped computing tutorial. realised i 4got to hand in hostel withdrawal form. gave a wrong answer for chem tutorial when i usually keep my mouth shut.
but in e end the form was still accepted. the chem tutor was quite encouraging abt my wrong answer. i remember my mistakes better that way too. pride kena bashed.

went to meet j for the sharing session (still cant get what they call it coz it was all in chinese). was listening and translating to english on e spot, what the speaker shared. alot of them, i either heard before, of mr lim shared wif us before, things that lay etched at the back of my mind, but never really occured to me dat much. i got to know an amazing girl, and then this amazing guy...

alot's going on in my mind... i went back to hall, looked up my odac file...
mr lim shared alot with us... sad to say i only read once and never referred to them again. alot of the things that he shared i even forgot about them...

my hands were shaking as i flipped through the pages... the things he mentioned... i remembered the days... i felt like i was fighting my own battle.. coz then i didn't fit in.. the odac guys n gals cared for me... but to me it felt like it was their obligation.. all i had with me were words from mr lim... stories that encouraged me mentally, sayings that fought this mental struggle with me, these that helped me overcome the physically weaker me.

whatever happened to them after i left cj? bcoz of the hate i had for the teachers? the people? myself?

L, i dunno what i'll do without u. fate has brought us more than together. i shared with an impt friend of mine today, how u always saved a seat for me despite the 99% possibility that i would not show up in lectures. i went for lect today and u came up n sat beside me. even though u know dat wif me beside u i'd talk n talk n u wun be able to pay attention. den u drove me to north spine. the only parking lot available required parallel parking. i'm sorry i laughed at first. but didn't u realise that my laughter was reduced to a smile? i saw the effort u put in to get ur car parked. had i been the one, i would give up and park further down. but u tried, failed, tried again, failed, grumbled, but ultimately u got it in. it wasn't a perfect parking, but u did it. i'm proud of u man. then just now, i'm really touched. u actually asked if i was back in hall. the only one to ask(apart from j, yes i acknowledge and thank him for his concern). and u actually drove all the way to jurong east to pick me up so i didnt have to spend money on a cab. time then was 1245am. den u accompanied me for supper, drove ard coz i couldnt give u exact directions on where to go (gomenasai), treated me to coffee, listened to me go on and on and on abt my life... it was past 2am when we left. and u sent me back to hall. L, i cant thank u enough for 2nite(this morning). I really curse the ppl (with tears in my heart), who cant see the goodness of your heart, of your nature...

Violet, u're really very important to me. really. i always wish i could help u whenever u're down. but i always cant find anything but my stupidity to help u feel better. most of the time u dun even feel better. i always bring up the things we did, how u helped me change for the better. i dunno if i'll be able to meet the above 2 ppl and be treated so well, if i hadnt met u 3 yrs ago. have faith girl. it hurts to see u like this...

i always thought i could survive alone. coz i've been alone for too long. i've always thought i'm a curse to the ppl ard me. i thought that God sent ppl to me for me to help them, learn from them, then when they achieve what they've been searching for, they'll leave me, for a better life...

but the ppl above... are ppl whom i need. ppl whom i need in this stage of my life. ppl i, sadly, strongly rely on, for mental strength... strength stronger than what my weight training have earned me...

tired man... but there are things i needa do... b4 i head to bed..

a night of reflections... of course, to my friends and family whom i left out, i havent exactly left u all out... just that tonight.. this entry goes to them. take care, all of you...

and Happy Birthday ShouHua & NanHui~~~

I skipped school today! haha time now 10.20pm and i only juz returned to hall.

had a great time today wif my dearie sis~ thanx min for your precious time. took my mind off studies and just enjoyed for the moment...

1st we watched Pooh's Heffalump Movie. I'd probby not enjoy it as much if i were watching it wif anyone else. the baby heffalump lumpy is so cute! roo's so cute! everything so cute!! and i could just go "ahh so cute so cute!" to my sis coz she's my sis! totally enjoyed the movie~ of course dere were parts of the movie that were quite meaningful.. simple gestures of friendship could be so touching...

then we went shopping! actually we were juz window shopping... but then i saw POT stickers! So many of them... i couldnt resist. had to buy at least a set. had to resort to counting how many stickers i like on each set to decide which to buy. haa. now i dun even know where to paste. will probby get my notes filed up den can paste on the file covers. hee.

then bought food, pants, and a pair of heels! the heels not bad lah, though at first i couldnt quite balance on them. haa.

btw, i'm so proud of myself. coz i remembered my jh didi's birthday! this jh didi is no ordinary didi wor... got to know him when i was still working last year. he paste the imei label for my line de. den he treat me very nice de, every night will gif me marshmallow. den got once he folded colourful paper cranes for me, say hope my life as colourful as the cranes.. den inside got sweets that i used to buy for him. i until now still got the marshmallow n sweets havent eat coz she3 bu4 de2 chi1. on my last day of work, he caught me a spider leh! somemore i noe he scared of insects de still catch the spider for me.. but i set the spider free in e end lah coz it was still alive when he gave it to me... luckily he understands...

~HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY DI~

this is to all girls who keep thinking they're fat.

I went to get my cor med form filled in. and i had my height n weight taken.

I'M ONLY 1.58M!!!
AND I'M A WHOPPING 63KG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

does it make any of u out there feel better?

haha but for consolation, the doc couldnt believe it at 1st too.
well... i did ask for my ego to be hammered.

but i'm not pissed off by that.

i'm more irritated by the clinic. i told myself i'm NEVER going back there before, yet there i went again! and it fucking wasted a hell lot of my time. not to mention they over-charge me! fuck lah. KNNBCCHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEBYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!

doctor ask qn ask qn check this check that early know i dun talk so much think they charge by then n number of words mentioned. wat a fake. i hate doctors. dat's why i always believe in self-cure.

grah... as least now the form settled le. time to start work.

today was a frustrating day wif my kid. my sign language vocab is failing sia. my kid nearly blew his top. haai. I'm at AS1 already... still so lousy...

maybe RSPHI isn't my calling...

but if i don't join rsphi... i dunno where else i can go... what else can i do...

no one in logistics is going to be so crazy as to rejoin logistics again. i'm not dat nuts either.

anyway...

was talking to kj on the bus after tuition. asked him abt ENE stuff... seems like that's where i'd ideally be heading for... and according to yh alot of ppl going there.. so yah if i dun work hard that's it for me. my future in ntu will be screwed.

and we talked about COR. he told me alotta stuff. to not expect too much from cor. that cor might be scraped next year. that the turn-out is not good. it might not be a good trip. actually i kinda expected it. mt k is tough. physically n mentally for me. but what i'm looking for is a different experience...

and instead of asking why mt k and y not some other nearer shorter mt... think i'll just prepare for it bah.. since i'm only a small little instructor... i didnt plan much to give me the authority to say more...

hope my ego and pride gets hammered further bah.. wherever... i really need it now.

had my last AS1 lesson today. got back my results. it was such a disappointment........................
was hoping for a 99%... maybe i got more mistakes than i tot i did... only got 95%...
seems like that's gonna be the highest i'll ever get in my sign language course... AS2 get higher than 95%, impossible for me leh...

anyway... i'm gonna hafta skip the next round coz exams are coming and i needa buck up... so behind in my work, esp with all the lectures i've been skipping...

i'm still quite apprehensive towards widening my social circle...

my dad bought us KFC today... so sweet of him... i love my daddy!

heyo. i'm home rite now. using my sis' comp coz my laptop is in hall.

I went for Disney On Ice Princess Classics. and it was WAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYY COOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL......!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Man I was nearly moved to tears the moment they appeared. Wish I had more than a pair of eyes to look everywhere... din noe tat my sis got us such great seats!! 2nd row from the front of the rink!!! everything was... i dunno... cannot express in mere words...

i wanted to buy the $12 cotton candy.. but settled for the $2 ones outside in e end. i haf no use for a toy crown n mickey mouse ears lah. my sis got a rose for keepstake. i got my seat ticket n the memory with her. and of course the performance...

my favourite part of the show was the dance sequence by the guards of the crown prince. totally... i was so amazed lah... and a couple of the princesses fell during the spins but they got up and continued as per normal. really professional.

it's really well worth the $80 spent. was kept in awe from the start to the very end...
Excellent Job!!!!!!!!! 2 thumbs up! Would give more if i had.. haa

back to sch 2mr... for now... guess i'll juz turn in early..

shoot i cant seem to get the music back... hahaa even though everytime i load my blog i stop the music.

was planning on another 10k jog but fell asleep in e afternoon. woke up n it was almost 8 le. so went on 3.5k instead. 27mins.

I'm going to watch Disney on Ice: Princess Classics tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Actually... ppl who know me will know that I'm not very into this kinda stuff.. somemore the tix are the $80 ones leh!!! burn big big hole in my pocket...

but going wif dearie minmin makes it all worthwhile...

I can't wait to meet my sis 2mr!!!!!!!!!!!

I ate so much today... and i didnt go for my jog as planned...

i still hate u u noe... i tink of how u looked back then... u idiot... i still hate u... i cannot forgive u...
never...

i know my primary sch classmates are happy from the gathering.

fuck it. sometimes i wish i never made it.

coz apart from meeting ger, i wish the rest never happened. the shallow cruel truth from society.

i'm so not going for another gathering. remind me to not attend.

there's no place in this world for an ugly girl like me.
and i dun wish to force my way into your world too.

i hate u all ppl i noe from dhs. u all ruined me, screwed up my mindset, screwed my character. u all made me this eccentric person who cant control herself and the way she thinks of herself.

I HATE YOU ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

10.6km in 1hr 31mins. I havent jogged this far in 2 years. tired... but it was a good jog...

was listening to YES 93.3. and a good thing i was. and a good thing i didn't stop jogging after 5.3km. i was on my 2nd round, up the CS slope(no the other easier direction) den i heard the radio... the DJ was telling a story...

once there was this old man and old lady... they had a horse. One day the old man brought the horse to the village and sold it for a cow, den a goat, den a goose, den a duck, den a chicken and finally a bag of rotting apples. the old man den met 2 American guys who laughed at him for the things that he got in exchange. They bet with him for a bag of gold, that he would get a scolding from his wife when he got home.
when the old man reached home.. his wife was happy to see him. she said,
"Yeah! Now we have cow's milk, goat's milk, goose feathers, duck eggs and chicken eggs. And from the rotting apples we can make apple pies!" And to add on to that, the old couple won a bag of gold from the 2 American guys.

I learnt something from this story. So what if the person who inspired me to learn sign language forgot about the special memory between us? I may have lost him, but I still have sign language, and with that I've bridged the gap between the hearing impaired and us hearing people. And with sign language, I will moved further on, to get to know more, and as lionel puts it, touch the hearts of the hearing impaireds.

KK, u, can eat shit and die. muahahahaa. idiot.

Actually, i had a very cruel thought. i was thinking... i hope he'll graduate with extremely good results, become a successful doctor, and i will get myself sick/injured in the area of his speciality, and have him as my doctor, have him operate on me whatsoever, and i'll pray that he fails, even if it means i have to give up me life, because the guilt that will remain... i will make sure he pays psychologically...

then again... that will be too easy on him. i dun think he'll feel guilt that easily.

so u, just eat shit and die.

i was wrong about you. and i guess u're wrong abt me.

in any case, i've fallen. but i will climb back up... and i will continue to walk on... =)

lalaa... take care everyone~~

i cant believe ur ignorance is affecting me this much.

i hate you man.

you killed my passion for sign language.

i hate you.

i hate you wif tears in my eyes and a knife through my heart.

i hate you.

i didnt do much for sparkz today, yet i'm so tired.

but after months of planning... the event's finally over. and the kids had fun. hope the volunteers had fun too.

main comm... u guys n gals are simply amazing... i've got lots to learn from u all...

pri sch class gathering was the bomb man...
thanx Aidil & Johnny for organizing.. and thanx everyone who showed up for making it successful...

was a little disappointed wif someone..

but dun blame him...

coz i'm not who i was in pri sch le... i've morphed... or rather... still remained an ugly duckling while the other girls have grown into beautiful swans...

nvm... i learn sign language for myself now... for the passion from within...

thanx zy for listening...once again... i owe u one...

rest well SPARKZ comm. and class of 6/1 1997. xin ku ni men le.

it's tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

man i can't believe i'm this nervous. I actually spent the last 4 hours reading up the sparkz stuff, preparing the stuff for interpreters, printing my own set for reference, i only just started on my tutorial.

And then I still needa study for AS1 test. And I'm wide awake. I cant get myself to sleep...

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

had ophir gathering. and again ck msged me after it all saying i talk very little again. he's so nice sia i feel so fortunate just knowing him in ntu.

kk need to start work again. saw the match btwn kirihara n fuji again. haha. so tired. but i'm awake. sheesh. i need air.

haiyoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo...

i just melt away each time i hear Yukimura say Sanada'a name... the person who voiced Yukimura has such a beautiful voice... and the person who drew Yukimura... ahh... wat a terrific combination!!!

today was a good day. had a great jog with 3 amazing ppl. amazing.. coz they're all seniors.. and i only knew 2 of them for a second day. One i only just met. Yet i could just get along with them...

NTU's so full of cool ppl~

Anqi's cool too~

I'm one lucky girl.

And I saw another Zhang Guorong movie today. Nice nice nia...

And the beauty of last night still remains...

back in hall. in front of my laptop. haai... so many things left undone... so much on my mind... so many things to settle... i wish yesterday never came to an end...

yesterday was a great day. a great day to start with. i didn't die as badly as i expected to for computing. got back chem test results and i did fairly well. went violet's place, had a great time... in fact, the memory still lingers...

violet likes the present huimin n i got her. thanks daddy for helping me get it~ thanx min for collecting it for me. thanx mother for e idea. thanx violet for liking it. i was so afraid it would mean nothing compared to the other gifts u got...

again... last night was a beautiful night... everything seemed so beautiful to me.. it was a strange feeling.. cant describe fully in words.. i could just think back and feel so free.. like there wasnt a care in the world... the road was beautiful.. that bottle, the lights, the reflection in the tv... beautiful... our conversation.. beautiful too... last night was beautiful... totally...

maybe i did get high... maybe that's what u call don't think abt anything... but i only drank so little... make me wanna drink again sia...

last night was one of my more painful nights... head was throbbing, knees were hurting (coz of e air-con and somehow i kept kicking the blanket away much as i needed it.), but still... last night was beautiful... nothing could beat that feeling...

this is a weird entry.. but still..

~~~~~~~~HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY VIOLET~~~~~~~~

I'm in! I'm in!! I passed the interview~~ I'm going to Mount K~~~

shoot me now i've got loads of stuff to settle.

I was just thinking some morbid thoughts, coz I've been watching the match between Fuji Syuusuke and Kirihara Akaya over and over and over since yesterday. Think I'll leave it for another day.

for now... needa rush my tutorials.

Oh yah.. I dunno whether to feel proud of myself, or feel stupid. Haha.. had computing CA just now. And i'm so proud of myself coz I actually managed to get the base template out, even though i didn't really know wat is necessary. Den felt stupid coz in the process of editing, there was one part i actually got it right(dunno how i got it then) den i dunno press wat then it became wrong and I never managed to get it right again. arrghhh.. but anyhow.. even if i get a C or lower... i'm so proud of myself man... what i managed to cook up during the test today. i just need to study harder...

kk tutorials...

heyo................................................................

it's been 10 days since I lost my watch...
10 long days...
i miss u watch... haai... wonder how u're doing...
have u broken up into smaller pieces...?
have the waves smashed u up...?
did u get bitten by fishes...?
i'm so sorry u're all alone right now...

man... ppl u really gotta treasure everything that u have...everyone that u know...every event that happens... every good or bad thing that comes your way and teaches you something...

i was walking up the slope to school 2day... u dun noe how sick i was... i was sneezing my nose off... my head was on the verge of exploding... and i had physics 1 quiz coming up... i wanted to just get knocked down by a car or something...
then the shuttle bus passed by, and huimin was there on the bus waving (excitedly?) at me! haha just her expression itself was able to wash all that unpleasant thoughts away, and I just felt it was going to be a good day. thanx huimin~~~ u r one friend in my life that I need...

the comfort was short-lived, the quiz was terribly hard. i was freaking tired. juz collapsed in class right after the test. like fell asleep. skipped the lectures after that. headed for home. sis called on the way back. told me her results. i got sweared at by some guy coz we just walked and stood facing each other at the door of the train and me thinking he would walk the other way and he thinking i would walk the other way we just stood there and didnt move. but he gave way eventually.

finally reached home. entertained myself with POT. finally... man i just love POT. den i left home for sign language.

i was in the lift on the way down. i stay on the 22nd storey. my mother's customer came to collect the food. we left 2gether. went into the lift. there was this elderly man inside. my mother's customer asked me if i was the 2nd or youngest child. so i replied. she left. and there left me and the elderly man. then the man started talking to me:
(in chinese)
ah gong: came back from school ah?
me: er... yah...
ah gong: yah your bag very full
me:(looks at bag, sign language file inside) er.. yah...
ah gong: so u study wat standard now? sec 4?
me: er... university...
ah gong: (stunned face. now this face really very cute. cannot describe) waah! so smart ah!! study so good ah!! (and he like apologetically touches my hand that was on the bar in the lift)
me: er... ok larh...
(we reach the ground floor and say bye to each other.)

Omigod i just couldn't stop laughing to myself. all u ppl out there wif grandparents, treasure them k. my paternal grandparents were monsters, and they died before i could remember anything really nice abt them. i see my maternal grandmother only once a year and my grandfather has been in hospital for as long as i can remember. my aunt's leading a tough life now but she's still so adorable. love the elderly. coz the memory they give you is priceless.

k den after lessons, i got on the bus, and watched survivor on tv mobile. after i got off, i was still listening to 89.3 on the radio. it was interesting. i never watched an episode of this season's survivor so i didn't know who's who on which team. but it was exciting. it was like a commentary. haha. cheap thrill. reached home. watched the show. got really disgusted at this guy who's a dolphin trainer who cold-bloodedly killed 3 snakes!! omigod how can u be an animal lover and kill them at the same time?!?! then again put me in his shoes and I'll probby do the same. haai survivor. so sad jeff had to leave. he was not just an eye candy... i wonder if he was hoping he could stay too...dumb guy. had he voted for kim and not james, he might still be in the game. but he'll be suffering still... haai...oh well.. not like i would watch again...

BOSS>> who are you??

It's March!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Omigosh time flies...
I havent seen zy in ages...
havent even got him his prezzie...
ahhhhhh bad friend bad friend bad friend...

had understanding chinese cinema quiz today. so totally sucked. though i managed to crap up a page of chinese characters. haha. think the row of guys in front of me funnier. we jia you together bah s'poreans~ we are so dominated by the china peepz in there...

these few days... i keep thinking about...

~~~KOICHI DOMOTO~~~

yup kept thinking about his dvd in HMV at citylink. It costs a freaking $92 you know!!! Man I'll never get that kind of money to buy it sia......................

dear prince,
i know u're real cute and great n popular and all...
but cant u just lower the price of ur dvds...............
so that ppl like me who love u can show her support...

lalaa... I'm gonna get a poster of him and paste him in my hall room... i sleep on my home bed so little... i see so much less of him... even though i still see him everytime i open my wallet... heehee.

I'm so gonna learn jap while I'm in NTU... watch Prince of Tennis... den maybe I can understand the songs that 2nd prince Gackt-san is singing... lalalaa...

I'm feeling optimistic today~